blog come back!

Done with all the applications and dorm shit, the only thing
i have to worry about is the boxes and the packing i have to do..
i recently sent all the tuition to RISD, and they sent me back a
package saying that i have to do a Liberal Arts portion with 42 credits
during my freshmen year in RISD...and that really pissed me off
cuz some of the classes they required was the classes i took before in NMC
such as: Introduction of Sociology
College English Composition 1 (EN101)
American Nations II
Introduction to Psychology
Principles of Democratics
thats all i remember for now. so i went to NMC to pick up my official transcript,
oh, i first went to NMA to see Mr. Kodep to ask what i can do, because
i wasn't sure if i needed to send it out (i mean what if they don't even
accept my credits that i took in NMC. i didn't want to use my $20 in getting the transcript...im lyk really broke rite now..lol) so he sent out a fax telling
the lady "Ms. Sweeney" who was responsible for the Liberal Arts notifying her
that i already took classes here and wanting her to accept my credits.
after that it was all approved, Ms. Sweeney wanted the official transcript
so i went to NMC>then to the post office today...
sigh, i hope the school accepts my credits...i mean that would be really
easier for me to survive the tight, hectic semester in RISD..
i heard from people that my school is one of the schools that are really harsh to
freshmens in general...lyk all the shit we have to do during our first year...

My room mate is a Turkish 18 year old girl and i am so glad that
my room mate is not Korean.. (since i really don't like my race..haha LOL)
i can't wait till i meet her and my new surrounding environment i would be living in!
this is the first time im actually living off by myself..!
sorry to say this, and i know this would really make my parents disappointed...but
i have waited so long for this freedom!!!!!! i've always wanted to live by myself
and i can't wait!!!!! i mean i know its really going to be hard but hey,
i think i can do it!

fist of all, i need to do something with my love life...
it hasn't been going on well..
i am definitely have some problems and i totally feel like a bitch right now..
now i mean it....calling myself a bitch..its not like the sarcastic shit i always did..
(sorry if it sounded nothing sarcastic....hahah)
anyhow i am really excited in general with my life!!! X-D

'Hello June

things haven't been working the way i planne but
hey, that's why life is so exciting to live bcuz
there are way too much drama and unexpected things
that happen that makes it thrilling rather than boring

at times it is really tiring..all the drama and unimportant
shits i get from people but it's all good.
recenty i have been going to gold's gym to work out
the 10 day pass thingy..thats $50. I saw Seung hee..but
i didn't have the chance to say hello cus i was worried
if he didn't remember me.
during my freshmen year he was one hella funny/perverted oppa
he was definitely fun to hang out with him but he changed so much
no physically but in different ways..
maybe physcially too.. cus he got buffer..bt his face was
noticable..before he always had that joking, child-like smile on
now i don't see that anymore. he grew up and now he looks like a man..
for some reason...everytime i try to say hello to him theres this
wierd awkward-ness all of the sudden
which even makes it more harder for me to say hello...

today was suppose to be vianka's good-bye party but it didn' turn out the way
all the remaining nmaers had planned...(remaining as Tomo, Luis, me, Kaito,and Kaba)
there are also other people that i havent listed on the remaining nma list
but thats becus Im not sure if there are here or not..
anyhow. my parents were having a bbq tonite at my house cuz
this "uncle" (he looked pretty young) got married and came to honeymoon to Saipan
(hes from my mom's side. but I have never saw him. and this is the first time)
I never knew I had far far uncle. after the bbq me, tomo, my brother, luis and Kaba
all went down to big dipper for icecream.

vianka take care and i love you so much
you were one hella good best friend and i hope we get in touch.
im sorry for what had happened today and recently the past few monthes..
and im also so sorry that i couldn't be there for you when you really
needed me the most.
Good-bye my friend and take care.
I wish for the best always for you,my wifey! :^)

another post

ah, summer break has started
and yes, my gpa fell and i still have to send out stuffs to RISD
oh, to people who haven't noticed, i am not going to parsons
as i have planned. and yes, it is my dream school but right now
im not sure if i am ready for fashion design. so im going to this
art school in Rhode Island its called Rhode Island School of Design
its the number one school for art school. better than Yale University
(at least thats what i heard) still don't know why they accepted me
and i still do feel like i don't deserve this, but why i am very thankful
that i did get accepted! there are many reasons why i changed my plans
and it was definitely a hard decision because it is more far away from
Seattle...i mean New York is also far away from Seattle but closer than
Rhode Island..(yes, im seeing K again..to let you guys know..im in a
"friends for benefit" stage with him haha LOL)

anyhow second, i wanted to experience an urban life since i am from a small place
and thats one of the reasons why i was planning to go to New York but
my plans have changed....im stuck in this quiet (at least quiet-er than New York right?) place..not that i hate quiet places..its just that i wanted to experience
something new and exciting but i guess not.
at least new york is 45 minutes away. i can visit ?

to tell you the truth i have many plans this summer..
first i am planning to visit K around septemberish or august...
which one, either way..
the important part: (shhhh...its a secret)
without telling my parents that i am visiting...
although my parents do know that we did see each other like 1 year ago
(since i told my dad after the break-up) but i didn't tell them recently
that i have been seeing him again..(this time long-distance. Sorry dad about the cell-phone bills..i was too lazy to buy a card..haha LOL i hope you notice the phone bills after i leave to Korea..plz)
anyhow....so my parents totally don't know that we are seeing each other agian..
and it is a total crime for me to change the ticket to Rhode Island to Seattle
im not gonna live there, but maybe a one week visit before school starts.
and its really secretive and risky..cuz im not sure how im gonna do this but
it is definitely gonna happen.....LOL
i don't even know where this courage came from but i miss him so much
from the 1 year apart period.

around June-July im going to be at Korea..probably taking art classes
with my brother in the same portfolio academy i spent almost all my precious break..
don't worry, its not gonna be that massive like before.. only 3 times a week..
mann compared to before thats little!
then, im probably gonna take yoga classes or any exercise so that i can shed some pounds that i gained from all the finals.....
im also gonna club alot and see friends that i haven't been hanging out due to too much school events and work...

am i excited? yah..if only i dont fail mr. wicksman's EN 202 class.
shit i chose the wrong teacher..i think..
this is bullshit..but i hope and pray i do pass his class.......hahahah

i know, im back

finals are finally over by tomorrow for me,
and yes, i am very excited.
for the past few 3 weeks i have been sleeping less amount of time
i slept like at 3 am morning everyday.

im finally over highschool.
i have so waited for this freedom
one step of becoming a complete, mature human being
there are at times when i miss being childish, and immature
but at times it is really tiring
when i see people who just can't grow up and do things
that are only for grade school kids.
hey, but what can you say, huh? that's just the way some people are.
they mature late and i don't blame them for that
but it is at times ridiculous to see a physically grown up person
act like a 1 year old.

in a short period of time, i have grown up so much
the way i think, the way i treat others,
and whenever i think about others before me
i feel like i did grown so much
i still have a selfish side in me but im slowly getting rid of it.
after all,
if i think about it, a true friend and a family is someone who
can be there for me when i really needed them. people who can actually
accept you the way you are. without the fakeness and the public image

when i stretched my arms for help,
the people who are the "true" friends are always ready to embrace
the brittle, fragile, breakable soul and help me become a better person
they will love the way i am and i would in return.

at times i do lack people like that
but i am thankful that i at least have some.
because there are some people who don't have anyone who they can trust
although it is not safe to trust a human being 100%
we tend to do it still

new environment, new people, and new me.
i might not make friends right away and i am not that good with
making new friends but i can definitely be someone who can be there
when someone really needs me.
i might not be the best friend but i can be a truthful, honest, benign friend

just show me that you are not fake and i'll show you me
in like non-stop.
i may hurt you by my harsh, truthful critiques
but hey, it's all for your own good
so don't take it personally.

sorry, im just excited for another journey of my life
Rhode Island here i come :^)

Yesterday

yesterday was quite a day cuz I went on a "date" with eun ji
we planned it day before but i didnt ask my parents advance because
i wasn't sure if it was going to happen..and then eun ji called around 11ish
when my parents just arrived home from their work to eat lunch
then i told my parents that i was going out to eat and
as usual they were not happy about it
my parents have this thingy going on where they don't want to share
their kids with other people. they just want to keep us with them
and have no contact with others...
it's sort of a parent disease or something..
and it sometimes suffocates me
cuz i miss alot of fun because of that..
i mean they are TOO obsessed with us
i get the fact that they are doing this cuz they are my parents but
when it goes over the limit....man..then it sux
i mean you can tell how obsessed they are
by just talking to them for 10 minutes
my dad wants to have 7 different cameras in my dorm just to
check up on me..it sounds freaky? well imagine being the daughter....heh
and oh- it's serious..cuz he already have 10 different cameras in his store
so that he can check anytime when he's at home..
we actually watch people in my store which is located in Tanapag
and my house is all the way in Kobler....so yah...nice huh?
anyway..i did get out from house to eun jis' but it took hellotta time to do so
i had to wait 30 minutes, just to see if it was okay..
we went to moomin's and eun ji ate ramen set
and i ordered fried kimchi and pork...it wasnt that bad i guess?
after that we were wandering around dfs like tourists
and then we went to pena's to see what they had for new arrivals..but
eventually..they didn't have any arrivals..so we went all they way to garapan
to eat ice cream. theres this place called yellow mango
and their yogert icecream with fruits are so gooooooooooood!
i only ate it cuz eun ji was so full
then we called masa and luis what they were up to
and they were swimming at the beach behind aquaris
so we went there and i met yugo for the first time..
well i saw him in ayaka's blog but that was only in a pic
he looked like an aristocrat....some guy from a rich family cuz he was so pale..
masa made fun of me that i was more white then yugo...wtf?
but yah..it was an interesting day
tomo seemed really happy so i was happy too
eh-heh spring break is almost over....sigh....

K left to Seattle like yesterday or something...

and other than that nothin much..

i have to save up some money cuz i need to buy

birthday presents.....ahhhhhhh! i use way too much money on food..

anyhow so how's everyone? Ayaka? Chett?

I haven't heard lot from you

and oh, aya? did u get my email???

Hakuna Matata

it means no worries :^)



I just love disney characters <3

&, "♥♥♥☻スキねこ."; marry me said:

What have I been up to?:
♥these days I am addicted to Nate On (this Korean msn-thingy)
I think I can chatt for days and days ...this things is really crazy


let's sex-up the atmosphere! 님의 말 :
그런점에선 고마워
let's sex-up the atmosphere! 님의 말 :
너도 나 그런거할만큼 안좋아했으니까 안한거니까
i know death is inevitable. 님의 말 :
아니
i know death is inevitable. 님의 말 :
너가
i know death is inevitable. 님의 말 :
전나
i know death is inevitable. 님의 말 :
싫어
i know death is inevitable. 님의 말 :
하니까
i know death is inevitable. 님의 말 :
안한건데
i know death is inevitable. 님의 말 :
아니였으면
i know death is inevitable. 님의 말 :
했겠지 ....
let's sex-up the atmosphere! 님의 말 :
만약에
let's sex-up the atmosphere! 님의 말 :
너가
let's sex-up the atmosphere! 님의 말 :
나한테 하자고했음
let's sex-up the atmosphere! 님의 말 :
나 했을지도몰라
let's sex-up the atmosphere! 님의 말 :
나그땐 너 그만큼 조아했어


I was madly in love with this guy and I almost gave up my virginity
but I didn't because I was a bit coward at that time
but I have no regrets whats so ever cuz we broke up eventually
We broke up eventually but we still talk about really random shits still..
I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad...hmm but it makes me happy so
I think it's a good thing... :)

♥another thing I have been doing is watching a lot of Korean and Japanese dramas
on Crunchyroll...i think I have been doing that all spring break...
I recently watched all of gokusen...(I know it's really old...but i'm catching up! >w<)
im done watching gokusen 1, and Noda is soooooooooooo X100 cute!!!! ahhh!!
and..uhh..i stopped watching I'm sorry, I love you..
this is a Korean drama but really really sad..actually this is my second time watching
cuz so jisub is so hot in here XD yay

♥another thing, I have been accepted into Parsons New School of Design in New York
so...yah..I got their letter like 2 weeks ago but I actually got the actual packet 3 days ago..
im looking through it...and yes, im excited but..still not sure if this is the right thing..
i have alot in mind right now..cuz if i try to visit to Seattle every week..thats impossible..
well..huh...at least I got accepted into my dream school! yay

how is my spring break?:
♥nothing much?? i was planning to study and do alot of missing hws that i didn't turn in
for mr. wicksman's english class but that didn't work out as i planned cuz so far
i only did one..and my spring break ends this week...(it seemed like it just started!!!>:^( )
so basically im screwed...and oh, i was going to study for math too..cuz im literally failing
but ...that didn't work out too?? i don't know..these days im not sure what's up with me..eh-heh