im sorry

gummy거미 feat. TOP -미안해요 (me-an-hea-yo)

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thank you for your concerns
and also I definitely know that all of you care for me
and are worried about me


but, I'm the one who's making all the choice
and no matter how many times I tell myself
this isn't the right way, right person
I just want it so badly that I really don't care
if I get hurt again


Thanks though, for caring for someone
really worthless
I really appreciate it
and I feel so happy and thankful that at least
I have someone like you guys


I've tried so hard
went through so much
but it's useless

I hope you guys know that I tried so hard to get over
this one person but you know what guys?
It's just impossible
It's already beem a year
and while trying to get over this relationship
I was torturing myself
forcingly erasing all the memories
but the more I do that
I constantly go back to it and try to live and stay there

Long Time No See

Am I the slut or are the boys just perverted?

This other day I went to pick up my brother in this
really cute outfit. (the uniform outfit) with this cute heels that
Mrs. Arriola sed was cute rite?
and I got all the perverted look from the guys
................................................................................uh......
....................................wtf...............................................?


My brother told me I looked like a slut..but actually
I don't see how that outfit was slutty..
IT WAS WHAT I USUALLY WEAR
so...are you calling me I'm a whore...or..
is it just the guys with the perverted-ness?
I'm seriously changing what I wear...seriously...

URGH...

Hello Earthians?

Suki is back !
well, sorta...
THANK GOD AYAKA GOT HER PRESENT..cuz the whole time
I was gonna send letters out to her but since I haven't been
hearing from her whether her present was there or not..
I didn't want my letters to go to the wrong ppl so I waited a long time
and I NO LONGER HAVE TO WAIT!!!!

Ugh...I was wasted the other day
me, kaba, yuika,vianka, and eunji did the "girls nite out thingy"
but it didn't turn out the way I planned it cuz I was pissed off
with some kind of reason (not gonna tell cuz there are hell lota
people who read my blog and I don't want others to know..eh-heh)
well so I wasn't planning to drink alot rite? but I did
and I so needed to smoke cuz the fucken atmosphere was freggin awkward..
after smoking I felt little light headed so I started to drink more
then everyone left except eun ji and vi
so I planned to smoke another cig
well..................I was gonna smoke only one and just sleep
but the whole tipsy-ness just made me emotional I GUESS???
(I'm telling this embarrassing story of mine cuz everyone knows since "SOMEONE"
wanted to be a big cheap blabber mouth and told everyone about it..)
which I am fucken pissed off about cuz now everyone who wasn't in the damn
party know about what happened from the start to the end....
which is fucked up cuz come on, people make fucken mistakes..
thats why WE ARE HUMANS? and why would u talk about things like that
should be kept in as a secret?? huh? are you that fucken stupid, who fucken don't know
what should be sed in public and not? well I HOPED NOT, but this person
I hypothesis did..

Well I'm fucken sorry I had to ruin the whole fucken atmosphere okay?
Im sorry I had to be the wet blanket in my own party
I'm fucken sorry I had to throw up
but seriously some things should be just kept in
KNOW THE LIMITS BITCH FOR GODS SAKE...
you're cheap mouth just pisses the fuck
and since I planned to be open about it, i'll straight foward tell
"I DO NOT LIKE WHAT YOU DID, telling everyone"
maybe thats also another reason why I don't like you
because you tend to be always on my nerves acting like you really know me
Jesus christ, well enough of the whole pissy offy ....
I'm over bitching about it, and thank you for reading my bitching

I didn't want my whole comeback blog to be talking trash about
this person but oh well,

this is me before going all tipsy
when I was still okay. and not that emotional


Sorry earthians, I tend to go over the limit when something pisses me off
I say alot of harsh things that I actually mean..
what can you say, I mean this is me...
and oh this isn't actually "talking shit" because I actually can
say it right in front of the person's face...but trying to be a bit nice?
well that was my crazy nite/weekend

Heh, I love it when parents are off island X-D

임재범 너를위해

it's kinda wierd when you thought everyone changed
and the whole time it's so hard for me to get use to it...
but when you think about it,
it was actually me who changed a lot.
Hearing the same song, looking at the same person
actually it was me, who haven't been realizing that
it wasn't anyone who changed but me, myself

Was it that hard to just look at the mirror to know that..
I don't know..but it took a hell lotta time for me to figure that out
It is sad, when you see another you in the mirror staring back at you
"hi, who the fuck are you?"

the new me, I guess many people are use to
is actually someone that I am not use to
It is the direct opposite of myself...

What I have got into is something that I shouldn't have got into
Whenever I try to rewind it back to where it started,
the tape itself just tangles, that it is hard for me to untangle it again
it's just back to the place where I started, the ruined

Myspace freak

I finally became a myspace freak..
The whole time..I kind didn't like myspace
cuz it was too complicated..(all the codes and stuff..)
It felt like there was no way what so ever for me to do that
so the whole time I kinda didn't do much on myspace
(well sometimes, my brother changed my layouts to really corny ones
cuz he got bored..yah..he knows my password) but that was it..
anyhow....I felt like I was missing out with the 2k7 people..
people like mina....I finally got in touch with her!
yay!! and at the same time I think I became an addict....
.......I have a blogger, cyworld, and a myspace...what the hell




I don't know what's goin on with me..
At the smae time when I became a lonely,
I started to put more time into cyber stuff..which is sad...