Younha -Password 486

Japanese song by her
ユンナ(Younha) ~ もっとふたりで


いつもただうつむいてばかり
이츠모타다우츠무이테바카리
언제나 단지 고개숙이고 있을 뿐

一步踏み出す勇氣がなくて
입포후미다스유우키가나쿠테
한걸음 밝아나갈 용기가 없어요

そんなあたしの背中をただ
손나아타시노세나카오타다
그런 나의 등을 단지

優しくあなたが押してくれた
야사시쿠아나타가오시테쿠레타
부드럽게 당신이 밀어주었어요

泣きたくなったら泣いていいよ
나키타쿠낫타라나이테이이요
울고싶어지면 울어도좋아요

一緖に步き出そうよと
잇쇼니아루키다소오요토
함께 걸어나가자며

もっとあたしの傍にいて
못토아타시노소바니이테
더 내 옆에 있어줘요

そうもっと二人で手を繫げ
소오못토후타리데테오츠나게
그래요 좀 더 둘이서 손을 잡고

淚のあとには太陽に向かい
나미다노아토니와타이요-니무카이
눈물을 흘린 뒤에는 태양을 향해

輝く花咲かせるよ
카가야쿠하나사카세루요
빛나는 꽃을 피울 수 있어요

きっとあたしのこの先に
킷토아타시노코노사키니
반드시 나의 이 앞에

そうもっと涙がこぼれても立ち止まらないよ
소오못토나미다가코보레테모타치도마라나이요
그래요 더 눈물이 흘러넘치더라도 멈춰서지않아요

自分の花咲かせるように明日信じて
지붕노하나사카세루요오니아시타신지테
자신의 꽃을 피울 수 있도록 내일을 믿으며

この先の道步いてゆくから
코노사키노미치아루이테유쿠카라
이 앞의 길을 걸어갈테니까요

出會いも別れも知ったけど
데아이모와카레모싯타케도
만남도 이별도 알았지만

何度もさよなら済むたびに
난도모사요나라스무타비니
몇번이나 이별을 끝낼때마다

出會うことが怖くもなった
데아우코토가코와쿠모낫타
만나는것이 무서워지기도했어요

だけどやっと氣付けたんだよ
다케도얏토키즈케탄다요
그렇지만 드디어 깨달았어요

いろんな思い出 大事なこと
이론나오모이데 다이지나코토
여러가지 추억 소중한 것이

ずっと心に残るんだよ
즛토코코로니노코룬다토
쭉 마음에 남았어요

もっとあたしの胸の奥
못토아타시노무네노오쿠
좀 더 나의 마음속을

そうきっと悔し涙もほら
소오킷토쿠야시나미다모호라
그래요 꼭 후회의 눈물도

流れたあとには太陽に向かい
나가레타아토니와타이요-니무카이
흘린 뒤에는 태양을 향해

輝く花咲かせるよ
카가야쿠하나사카세루요
빛나는 꽃을 피울 수 있어요

もっと悲しいさよならが
못토카나시이사요나라가
더 슬픈 이별이

そうきっと訪れたとしても笑顔で手を振ろう
소오킷토오토즈레타토시테모에가오데테오후로오
그래요 반드시 찾아온다고해도 웃는 얼굴로 손을 흔들거에요

あなたの花咲かせるように未来信じて
아나타노하나사카세루요오니미라이신지테
당신의 꽃을 피울 수 있도록 미래를 믿으며

暖か夜蛾をあげると決めたよ
아타타카야가오아게루토키메타요
따뜻한 밤나방을 주기로 결심했어요

もっとあたしの傍にいて
못토아타시노소바니이테
더 내 옆에 있어줘요

そうもっと二人で手を繫げ
소오못토후타리데테오츠나게
그래요 좀 더 둘이서 손을 잡고

淚のあとには太陽に向かい
나미다노아토니와타이요-니무카이
눈물을 흘린 뒤에는 태양을 향해

輝く花咲かせるよ
카가야쿠하나사카세루요
빛나는 꽃을 피울 수 있어요

きっとあたしのこの先に
킷토아타시노코노사키니
반드시 나의 이 앞에

そうもっと涙がこぼれても立ち止まらないよ
소오못토나미다가코보레테모타치도마라나이요
그래요 더 눈물이 흘러넘치더라도 멈춰서지않아요

自分の花咲かせるように明日信じて
지붕노하나사카세루요오니아시타신지테
자신의 꽃을 피울 수 있도록 내일을 믿으며

今日も一歩づつ踏み出していくよ
쿄오모입포즈츠후미다시테이쿠요
오늘도 한걸음씩 걸어나갈거에요

recent pictures of me

I have realized that I didn't do much updates so
I decided to take lots of pics yesterday
and these are the result..
my bangs are long....I might grow it..or
wait until I go to Korea to cut it and give some coloring to it
I dunno what I'm gonna do..but I'm planning to
color it orange and straighten my bangs or something..

I have been gaining weight recently..from all that munching!!!!
you can see that from the pictures..so I decided to make the picturs
dark to hide all that...hehe

The hat is from this bakery in Korea
where they gave out hats to people who bought a cake..

I Think I am in Love with this guy

He definitely looks like someone I know but I don't know who
but recently I started to like this guy
his name: So Ji Sub

I have realized that women, when they grow older,the fall for the guys who
have nice body...and I think I am starting to like guys who have hot bodies..
WTF...I mean like last year I was in love with guys who are skinnier than
women and now..I'm in love with guys who have the body...
what a big change.......!





Big BANG's new song "Last farewell" M/V
about this guy living two different life
he's a geek during the day and a hot guy at night
and the girl doesn't know it's the same guy...hehe funny movie
LOVE their song!!!

Another Whole New Semester

These days I'm just thankful that I am still living
and that I didn't kill myself as I was planning to when I was
seriously into depression. Thank God!!
You don't even know how many times I held that knife and put it back..

These days I'm coming back to normal..
Over the whole drama with my Ex-boyfriend thingy
and the whole revenge that I have planned with my small evil mind
Whatever. I just want everyone to be happy

I don't know if any of you will believe but I'm trying my best to be a bit nice.
I try not to say much bad words as possible and I try a lot to be nice to many people..
I know that sounds like not me but I am really trying

Enough drama..seriously I think it's not even good for my health..
I think I'm becoming more healthier compared to the last time..
Last semester I really felt sick and fucked up
I screwed up a lot. I smoked and I did a lot of things that fucked me up
after all that shit I became a healthy person.. ( I think..)

I came to a realization that I only have 4 monthes left..
and that just makes me sick to my stomach.
I really want to leave this place and get a slight taste of freedom
but at the same time it's really scary because I easily get homesick..
I constantly want to come back to where I belong..
I try so hard to adapt and yet I just can't let go the place I was born and raised.
I mean I do adapt to the enviornment but at the back of my mind
I have a strong desire to come back..and it misses my hometown..
I don't even know where all the "I won't come back after I leave this place"

I am thankful for little things and I am happy that I am with people I love so much
I am also thankful that I learned another valuable lesson from
all that crap that I had to go through..
I learned a lot and I became a stronger person.
It created another whole new me that I need
in order to live through out this harsh world.

my foremost goal for this semester is getting all A's
Forget about making boyfriend shit..
I am through that... (Eun Ji thinks I am Bi...WTF)
anyhow I just don't want to screw up my last semester
I have to succeed...I don't want to be a loser again...
I don't want to be a loser to someone who is a bigger loser than me
I have put too much attention into.....
Someone who doesn't deserve my attention
Someone who is a total failure
Someone who is more f-ed up than me
Someone who has no proper thinking devise
(or maybe it doesn't function well..either way..)
Someone who is immature
Someone who acts like my dog Banny

Done with it...
and I don't need another wierd semester..
I am through messing with my mind



Song I have been listening to these days
"Stop this train" by John Mayer

The book Slave to Fashion

Actually, in my experience ugliness does
something horrid to the soul. Knowing that whoever your're
talking to can only think, God, but she's ugly, must burn
into you like acid. Unless you're especially stupid.
Which makes it all the sadder that pretty people are so often
dim, and ugly ones clever. ( I know it's a cliche, but cliches
get to be cliches because they're true. Sometimes, anyway)
Hugh once gave me a very good piece of advice. I don't know
where he got it from. "Katie," he said, "always tell pretty girls
that they're clever, and clever girls that they're pretty. They'll
love you forever."
"And what do you say if they're pretty and clever?" I asked.
He smiled and patted me on the bottom. "You say yes,
Katie. You say yes." Naughty man.




(Part where I really agreed)

To my waiting fans

haha I guess that will be Ayaka, Chett
and rest of my friends who love my blog
(am I getting myself wrong..or what...hehe)

oh I had a really hectic winter vacation because
I realized that I had no time for myself and focused
(not really but little bit) more on my portfolio for college

right now I am finished with RISD,PRATT, Parsons, UCLA, AAU
but I still need to get my transcript for UCLA and I need to call
Pratt to see what's up cuz they sent this letter to me (actually to my dad)
that I am missing a essay but when I checked with my teacher
I didn't miss anything because they only essay they required
was a personal essay and I did write that......so don't know
what is going on..hmmm

*these are the latest pics of me..when I was in my academy
thinking of what to draw and the other one was...I was kinda shy to take
picture...I think...*







right now I am finally home!
HOME SWEET HOME!!!! I am so glad that all that shit is over
and I am home..
I couldn't sleep for 3 days....because I came back this morning
so it's actually 4 days...and today was the registration for NMC...
so it was really hectic..and I am really tired!!! I waited for 5 hours...

oh, and to Ayaka..
I didn't send the present yet..because I was soooooo busy
but I did buy the present...(really !!)
I will either give it to masa or I will send it off this week
so if you wait for another week patiently..like you did right now
I think you will get it!! *WINK sorry for the lateness...
I LUV YA!!!



2008 first blog end!