My favorite Korean Celebrity

D.O.B: 1977.05.05

Choi Kang Hee

최강희

She's pretty old but she looks like a highschool girl.♡

Doing what I am good at: being a Masochist

I think I love pain...Mental and Emotional Pain..

as I have admitted, I think I have

been getting the energy to live my life

from enduring the pain that I got from having stress

I mean just by looking at what kind of guys I fall for..

the hardcore "badboys." I know that they will hurt me

later on, but I still go for them-even though I know they

will hurt me. Can't hate them for some reason.

Oh, when me and Wen were dicussing about badboys,

on the radio, there was the song by Soulja boy

but remix done by Travis Barker

well that song was playing and we talked

about how Travis Barker was so hot

(well only me)

I really think I like bad boys......

*SEXY TRAVIS: Wen told me that he's single now...>_<*

Today was just the day that I love: busy busy busy

The more I get busier, I get more stress

but I love busy days.. it helps me get other shitty thoughts out

of the way. If I am busy, I won't have to think about

how my life is so empy without that someone I have been

craving for the past few months

Don't worry, I'm over it. It's just that I'm still not ready

to live my life without him. I'm getting there don't worry

Just taking my time to get there. I don't want to hurry..

I know for sure that some day I will get over him because

I know fact that we cannot be together..or should I say

we won't be together because I am just sick and tired of all the

shit load of games he had to play on me but loving a person

for a long time and letting him go, is kinda hard.

Don't worry I'm fine. I'm doing much better!

well, back to my daily life,

First off, I had a Japanese class this morning at 9 AM.

after that I had to rush back to Senior Seminar because

I thought we would at least go over our college application process

because since it's coming to an end. and since that they helped us

last minute...but instead they had a really crappy SEFA scholarship

presentation..that I am not signing for sure.

So, I just headed out to my PS 110 meeting at the student center

I forgot to bring my laptop to workon my powerpoint so, I had to head back home

to get the stuff.. stupid me...

besides I woke up really late today..

I was suppose to wake up at 6:00 Am.

and I had my cellphone alarm on

but for some reason..I just can't wake up

these days even with alarms.

becuz I cannot hear my alarm ring?? I don't know

the sounds to the max....but I have trouble waking up

well anyways. I came back from home

and started working on my powerpoint

and then I headed back to STUCO meeting at 2:00 Pm. to see how the

sophies, and the jrs are doing on their dance thingy @ GIG..

wasn't my idea. they wanted one so I thought they were fundraising ..but

turns out to be they were all depending on Emma-who said

she will donate, or should I say "pay" to make this happen but

I think she just said that to get attention..and SHE DEFINATELY GOT ATTENTION

oh, well just wasted my precious 1 hour at SUTCO meeting :)

THANKS GUYS

Emma didn't even show up to our meeting..like WTF..she has issues..

Everyone in NMA are so fake these days..it just disgusts me how they act.

well not everyone but majority of them. Can't really adjust to it but watever

like when did I even care. rite?LOL

after that I came back to the student center to work on the presentation

and then turns out that we had a meeting with current issues class at 3:30 at

Java Joes.....so me and Wen headed to Java Joes at 3:24

talked to Emily and discussed. but didn't get anything done cuz

two people didn't turn in their surveys ...

and none of them showed up except me, Wen, and Emily...

really hectic ...but I kinda enjoyed it

I have no gas in my car..:)

Thank you oil companys for raising the gas prices....

There are still so much things to do

first I have to finish the slides for PS110 because I planned to

check up with KiKi sunday with it.

and also the current issues survey tallys with Wen.

I also need to read my sociology text book to catch up

(recently I have been drawing random shits in class...so..yah.)

and I also have a Final comming up on PS110...shit

didn't read chapters 8,9,10...Urgh..

and I didn't even finish the apps. for college...

I should just stop drawing in class and focus more...

What is happening these days..Just too much stuffs going on in my head

that I just can't focus......

Things I have to do and I have done

What did I finish? NOTHING..
I know the stage right now I am in is really an important stage but...urgh..
I don't know why I'm procrastinating at this point where there are so many things to do
I'm mad at myself >:(

Things I have to do :
1) fill in the Request for Transcript Record for NMC
2) do the online application for AIB
3) print out the letter of recommendation requirement forms
for PRATT, PARSONS, FIT, and AIB
4) give the recommendation requirements to Mrs. Arriola
5) NMA transcript
6) Sociology presentation and paper
7) study Sociology for exam
8) study Princ. Democratic for exam
9) make slides for PS 110
10) draw self portrait for UCLA, PRATT
11) go to college board and finish registering the Jan 26 test

Yah, I know that I'm loaded with stuffs to do but I just can't finish them
because stupid me..I feel so lazy these days...
AH, 정신차려장슬기. 이러케빈둥빈둥할때가안니라구T^T

Pissed, Pissed, Pissed thats what I feel right now
It felt like I did a lot of stuff but if I turn back and see what I did so far..
There are nothing that I have accomplished...Shit..

I just sometimes don't want to go to college.
I mean there are way too much stuffs to fill out....URGH

What can I do, Just empty my mind and try to study more harder
I too old to think about all these childish thoughts.
Let them go Suki, Let them go.
Think about all the freedom and great people you are going to make
the moment you leave this filthy place and start another new itinerary to college

Missing my Jr year

To tell you the truth, I really miss my Jr year.
Its so sad that time cannot reverse back
because since I really miss it, I'm constantly daydreaming
all the time when I was actually happy
I wish if it could come back

"만약에 그때같은날이 한번더 찾아오면.."
If only .....Im constantly missing it that it's not even funny
I guess I am getting older cuz I have more things to think about now
then I use to before.
Life, college, future..everything..It's comming all a sudden.
I hate that..

I miss the days when I spent it with
Ayaka, Vianka, and all my best friends
At least last year everyone hanged out.
I feel so left out
I'm questioning myself if I even have
friends called a true friend.
I guess after all...there is no "we" but only
"I" in surviving this world.
everyone betray everyone
Truth, honesty does not exist anymore
I feel like I myself is another
fake person living a fake life
encountering fake people like me
I miss the days so much..
The comfort, the fun, love and everything..
Everyone changed so much. I guess the phrase
"An identity of a man really depends on
what type of women he gets" is right.

It was the most unforgettable period
in my life that I will never forget
and I'm not sure if there would be
another period like that again in my book.
If De Ja Vu actually exists,
I wish if everything that happened last year
happens again...

Happy Virus: 무한도전 Infinity Challenge

Me and Eun Ji's happy virus:무한도전

with MC Yoo, Hong Chul No, Joon Ha Jung,

Myung Soo Park, Hyung Don Jung, HAHA

crazy Korean comedians giving great joy every weekends

GREAT GUYS !!!! LUV THEM TO THE MAX

Paris Hilton showed up on their show. Can't wait till I see that

*Slight Peek-a-boo of episode 79*

After finishing my UCLA Application.

DAMN! FINALLY FINISHED!! WTF

First off..I should be happy..but not really right now..
I guess I've been too stressed out for 3 months
with that stupid UCLA application..
I had it done..it was just the Personal Essay
that was really making the whole process get delayed......
I hate the fact that I had to spend more time
on a college app. that I am sure
I am not going to get accepted..
and besides...now that I turned it in..
I kinda realized that my personal essay
was a little bit EMO..
hey! but it was a really "personal" essay..
I mean...I did what they told me to..
"Write a really personal essay"
I'm also kind of sick and tired of
my korean teacher telling me what to do.
I get the fact that he is trying his best
to help me get into a good college..but
it's a little bit too much...
I revised my essay 8 times, rewrote it twice
and made 10 different people look at it..
and I still don't see why he has been saying that
it was the most "cliche" essay he has ever read
when I WROTE ABOUT MY EXPERIENCE..
How can my personal experience be cliche?????
I don't know...I mean if I don't get aCcEpTeD,
then I'll look for some other colleges..
such as Parsons, or PRATT..
If I can't get into any of them..
oh, well..I can just get into AAU..
At least I got accepted to AAU..T_T Thank God...
I can't believe that getting into
college is way harder than getting an A...
This whole process is just painstaking...URGH

After getting in my pain in the ass UCLA app. I get all this regret...
don't know why..but alot of regret..lyk I could have done much better..
I'm drained out..and I don't feel like applying to any other colleges...
the UC app. just enervated my motivation..Fuck. >:(

Im getting all the deadlines mixed up..
and I'm not even sure what is due when anymore..
I'm just too disorganized..I've been losing stuff...for the past few month..
really living a hectic life!!!
I should gather up myself and start to organize or something..
I just don't know where to start..it seems like everything is out of order.
the transcripts for NMC and NMA
and all the things..AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Someone please save ME...

*Some pictures of me and SEXY KABABA
in Managaha: attracting/seducing the lifeguards*



&*&Last Saturday:Into the BLUE&*&

Just a little break

My favorite boy band "BIG BANG" performing with the Wonder girls
Wonder girls "Tell Me" song was a big hit in Korea that everyone
learned their dance moves.. (from army men to young grade schoolers)
I even learned the dance moves XD

Ahhhhh!!! G-Dragon (Gi Young), T.O.P.
(Big Seung Hyun), and Victory (SeungRi aka Little Seung Hyun)
are soooooooooooo damn CUTE!!!!!!! Kawaiiiii

Big Bang's song "Lie" is also so catchy!!!
There are some comments that Wonder Girls didn't do a great job in
singing the "Lie (gugeemal)"song
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH they are so addictive :D

recently ..Eun Ji got mad at me for re-influencing her with the whole
"boy band loving" thing....
Masa and the other guys at NMA don't get our BIG BANG FANthingy
but who the fuck cares about what other's think ! LOL

I just love TOP's husky voice..
If only I meet them...SIGH...
Eun Ji said that if she meets them..she will hug them and never let them go..
I might do the same thing..but more massive...LOL

XD a little gift for myself..for working hard these days...with the whole
college application..and everything..without procrastinating..!! YAY
I mean..i think my life span is getting shorter the more I work on my college
application... I'm wondering if I would be alive ....when I DO ENTER COLLEGE...
Seriously..this college applications should be illegal.. as Wen said..
It shortens the lives of many young mid-teenagers.....
WE ARE TOO YOUNG TO DIE !!!!!!!!

Too much papers to fill out..and too much drawings to draw...
I just feel like giving up..but oh well..
at least I got accepted into my backup school
WATEVER....happens..happens...URGH..


*Wonder Girls-Tell Me M/V*


*BIG BANG-Lies M/V*

Stupid me...After realizing the fact that theres only 6 months left..and i leave for good..

I thought that it would be great if my brother and I hang out more often..

but never had the courage to do so..cuz as many of my fwends know...ITS MY BROTHER..

we never communicate. never talk. never to shit together..

we are only bloodly related..but never connected like real blood family

as Kaba described my brother : devil, evil, scary

it was really hard to be close with my brother..I really had to squeeze my courage out

So, I first called Vianka if she wanted to follow us..but she was too busy..

It was kinda awkward...but was really fun too!

From Holleywood Theatres>McDonalds>Garapan Street Market>Holleywood T.

I wish i was alittle bit more close to my brother..but hes sometimes a bit annoying

* My make-up was well done..!! So I took a picture of my eye*

After watching the "First Christmas?"

(don't remember the movie title) featuring Chris Brown..

DAMN! CB was hot to the max!

I think we had too much sweets....look at our facial expressions..

My Brother has the SEXY look ON. LOL

@ Megodonaroodo

맥도날드

I had a happy meal. my brother had a Big Mac Set

Mc Donalds have weird toys...they give kids Vibraters...

it was actually a bug toy....but it vibrated...

and oh, my! my brother's dirty mind

"who the fuck give vibraters to kids? i thought that was only for adults"

I mean..why..ur rite..it is for adults...

Pics Pics Pics!

Me and my KRAZY NMA fwends...

I mean...What would I do without them????

Trying to survive my SENIOR YEAR

Stress. Stress and MORE STRESS
I thought that senior year was suppose to be a fun year
This is not what i have expected to be

During my freshman year I couldn't wait until I turned senior
I was looking foward to my senior year.
I saw all my upper class onni and oppa's all enjoying their senior year.
They seemed like they didn't have any problems. but everythings a PROBLEM.

Urgh. I think the Mina Curse is actually working.
Not to all of us but to some of us like Vianka, Wen, Debra, Jae Hee, me..etc
I've realized that I have been more bitchy now-a-days...
I also gained 3 kilograms...

These days I am not even sure if I want to go to college...cuz recently my "portfolio teacher" just criticized me with my writing skill..how "cliche" all my recent essays were for personal essay part.....I don't even want to go to UCLA..and I don't even see why I need to stress out like this. I mean I would feel great if I did get accepted to UCLA..but I already know that I won't..because
my SAT scores are not that high and also I don't have an outstanding extracurricular activities like Debra...COME ON...why try if you already know what's going to happend rite?
I can't believe I'm stessing on something that I do not have to stress about...

I miss Ayaka so much.. I actually miss my Jr year..
We had so much fun.. (although I missed out a lot) I really had fun.
it was one of the memories that I will never want to forget.
My first love, the wonderful memories with the GREAT SENIORS Ayaka, Mina, Seung Hwan..
I wonder what they are doing rite now....

I still cant believe Im a senior..I still feel like and act like a freshman..
obnoxious, stupid, wild..etc...
i don't want to grow old.....
If i grow old, then im going to miss all the drama, gossips, and the crazy stuffs
I can't do crazy things just because of the fact that Im a teenager ..cuz I ain't gonna be one soon...WTF
I feel like I grew up so fast....physically..
I still feel like Im a kid mentally...(doesn't mean I'm childish.....well sorta..)
I dunno...jus confused..and more confused about my life....the future and more

The more I live my life..I feel like friendship is not everything...
the people that I once trusted are nolonger trusted.
the people that I thought were my friends turned out not...
it's just dissapointing everytime I realize this...
the fact that I am alone just drives me crazy...
I know that ...I've known that...but I never wanted to admitt it...
Shit....This is just crappy..

If only I had the power to retrospect back to 8 months ago....
If only.....