Doing what I am good at: being a Masochist

I think I love pain...Mental and Emotional Pain..

as I have admitted, I think I have

been getting the energy to live my life

from enduring the pain that I got from having stress

I mean just by looking at what kind of guys I fall for..

the hardcore "badboys." I know that they will hurt me

later on, but I still go for them-even though I know they

will hurt me. Can't hate them for some reason.

Oh, when me and Wen were dicussing about badboys,

on the radio, there was the song by Soulja boy

but remix done by Travis Barker

well that song was playing and we talked

about how Travis Barker was so hot

(well only me)

I really think I like bad boys......

*SEXY TRAVIS: Wen told me that he's single now...>_<*

Today was just the day that I love: busy busy busy

The more I get busier, I get more stress

but I love busy days.. it helps me get other shitty thoughts out

of the way. If I am busy, I won't have to think about

how my life is so empy without that someone I have been

craving for the past few months

Don't worry, I'm over it. It's just that I'm still not ready

to live my life without him. I'm getting there don't worry

Just taking my time to get there. I don't want to hurry..

I know for sure that some day I will get over him because

I know fact that we cannot be together..or should I say

we won't be together because I am just sick and tired of all the

shit load of games he had to play on me but loving a person

for a long time and letting him go, is kinda hard.

Don't worry I'm fine. I'm doing much better!

well, back to my daily life,

First off, I had a Japanese class this morning at 9 AM.

after that I had to rush back to Senior Seminar because

I thought we would at least go over our college application process

because since it's coming to an end. and since that they helped us

last minute...but instead they had a really crappy SEFA scholarship

presentation..that I am not signing for sure.

So, I just headed out to my PS 110 meeting at the student center

I forgot to bring my laptop to workon my powerpoint so, I had to head back home

to get the stuff.. stupid me...

besides I woke up really late today..

I was suppose to wake up at 6:00 Am.

and I had my cellphone alarm on

but for some reason..I just can't wake up

these days even with alarms.

becuz I cannot hear my alarm ring?? I don't know

the sounds to the max....but I have trouble waking up

well anyways. I came back from home

and started working on my powerpoint

and then I headed back to STUCO meeting at 2:00 Pm. to see how the

sophies, and the jrs are doing on their dance thingy @ GIG..

wasn't my idea. they wanted one so I thought they were fundraising ..but

turns out to be they were all depending on Emma-who said

she will donate, or should I say "pay" to make this happen but

I think she just said that to get attention..and SHE DEFINATELY GOT ATTENTION

oh, well just wasted my precious 1 hour at SUTCO meeting :)

THANKS GUYS

Emma didn't even show up to our meeting..like WTF..she has issues..

Everyone in NMA are so fake these days..it just disgusts me how they act.

well not everyone but majority of them. Can't really adjust to it but watever

like when did I even care. rite?LOL

after that I came back to the student center to work on the presentation

and then turns out that we had a meeting with current issues class at 3:30 at

Java Joes.....so me and Wen headed to Java Joes at 3:24

talked to Emily and discussed. but didn't get anything done cuz

two people didn't turn in their surveys ...

and none of them showed up except me, Wen, and Emily...

really hectic ...but I kinda enjoyed it

I have no gas in my car..:)

Thank you oil companys for raising the gas prices....

There are still so much things to do

first I have to finish the slides for PS110 because I planned to

check up with KiKi sunday with it.

and also the current issues survey tallys with Wen.

I also need to read my sociology text book to catch up

(recently I have been drawing random shits in class...so..yah.)

and I also have a Final comming up on PS110...shit

didn't read chapters 8,9,10...Urgh..

and I didn't even finish the apps. for college...

I should just stop drawing in class and focus more...

What is happening these days..Just too much stuffs going on in my head

that I just can't focus......