Am I the slut or are the boys just perverted?

This other day I went to pick up my brother in this
really cute outfit. (the uniform outfit) with this cute heels that
Mrs. Arriola sed was cute rite?
and I got all the perverted look from the guys
................................................................................uh......
....................................wtf...............................................?


My brother told me I looked like a slut..but actually
I don't see how that outfit was slutty..
IT WAS WHAT I USUALLY WEAR
so...are you calling me I'm a whore...or..
is it just the guys with the perverted-ness?
I'm seriously changing what I wear...seriously...

URGH...

Hello Earthians?

Suki is back !
well, sorta...
THANK GOD AYAKA GOT HER PRESENT..cuz the whole time
I was gonna send letters out to her but since I haven't been
hearing from her whether her present was there or not..
I didn't want my letters to go to the wrong ppl so I waited a long time
and I NO LONGER HAVE TO WAIT!!!!

Ugh...I was wasted the other day
me, kaba, yuika,vianka, and eunji did the "girls nite out thingy"
but it didn't turn out the way I planned it cuz I was pissed off
with some kind of reason (not gonna tell cuz there are hell lota
people who read my blog and I don't want others to know..eh-heh)
well so I wasn't planning to drink alot rite? but I did
and I so needed to smoke cuz the fucken atmosphere was freggin awkward..
after smoking I felt little light headed so I started to drink more
then everyone left except eun ji and vi
so I planned to smoke another cig
well..................I was gonna smoke only one and just sleep
but the whole tipsy-ness just made me emotional I GUESS???
(I'm telling this embarrassing story of mine cuz everyone knows since "SOMEONE"
wanted to be a big cheap blabber mouth and told everyone about it..)
which I am fucken pissed off about cuz now everyone who wasn't in the damn
party know about what happened from the start to the end....
which is fucked up cuz come on, people make fucken mistakes..
thats why WE ARE HUMANS? and why would u talk about things like that
should be kept in as a secret?? huh? are you that fucken stupid, who fucken don't know
what should be sed in public and not? well I HOPED NOT, but this person
I hypothesis did..

Well I'm fucken sorry I had to ruin the whole fucken atmosphere okay?
Im sorry I had to be the wet blanket in my own party
I'm fucken sorry I had to throw up
but seriously some things should be just kept in
KNOW THE LIMITS BITCH FOR GODS SAKE...
you're cheap mouth just pisses the fuck
and since I planned to be open about it, i'll straight foward tell
"I DO NOT LIKE WHAT YOU DID, telling everyone"
maybe thats also another reason why I don't like you
because you tend to be always on my nerves acting like you really know me
Jesus christ, well enough of the whole pissy offy ....
I'm over bitching about it, and thank you for reading my bitching

I didn't want my whole comeback blog to be talking trash about
this person but oh well,

this is me before going all tipsy
when I was still okay. and not that emotional


Sorry earthians, I tend to go over the limit when something pisses me off
I say alot of harsh things that I actually mean..
what can you say, I mean this is me...
and oh this isn't actually "talking shit" because I actually can
say it right in front of the person's face...but trying to be a bit nice?
well that was my crazy nite/weekend

Heh, I love it when parents are off island X-D

임재범 너를위해

it's kinda wierd when you thought everyone changed
and the whole time it's so hard for me to get use to it...
but when you think about it,
it was actually me who changed a lot.
Hearing the same song, looking at the same person
actually it was me, who haven't been realizing that
it wasn't anyone who changed but me, myself

Was it that hard to just look at the mirror to know that..
I don't know..but it took a hell lotta time for me to figure that out
It is sad, when you see another you in the mirror staring back at you
"hi, who the fuck are you?"

the new me, I guess many people are use to
is actually someone that I am not use to
It is the direct opposite of myself...

What I have got into is something that I shouldn't have got into
Whenever I try to rewind it back to where it started,
the tape itself just tangles, that it is hard for me to untangle it again
it's just back to the place where I started, the ruined

Myspace freak

I finally became a myspace freak..
The whole time..I kind didn't like myspace
cuz it was too complicated..(all the codes and stuff..)
It felt like there was no way what so ever for me to do that
so the whole time I kinda didn't do much on myspace
(well sometimes, my brother changed my layouts to really corny ones
cuz he got bored..yah..he knows my password) but that was it..
anyhow....I felt like I was missing out with the 2k7 people..
people like mina....I finally got in touch with her!
yay!! and at the same time I think I became an addict....
.......I have a blogger, cyworld, and a myspace...what the hell




I don't know what's goin on with me..
At the smae time when I became a lonely,
I started to put more time into cyber stuff..which is sad...

Life would be great

Wouldn't life be perfect if everyone had a valentine,
sweatpants were sexy,
Monday's were fun, junk food didn't make you fat,
girls didn't cause any drama,guys weren't so confusing,
nothing was regettable, you didn't have to lose the people you love,
friendship didn't fade, and good bye only meant 'till tomarrow?

After all life is just another dreadful
fairy tale that we have to
live in order to see the temporary "happy ending"
that was created by our stupid mind

Everyone changes

갑자기 친해졌다가 급속도로 멀어지는 사람이 있는가하면
친하지도않았는데 친해지는 사람도 있다
한사람이 떠나면 또 다른 사람이 찾아와주는법이다
그래, 한동안 너무 친했던 사람과 멀어진건 가슴이
아픈일이지만...그뒤엔 또다른 인연이있으니까
괜찮다고..위로해야지

과거에 붙잡혀있는것보단
현실을보는게 현명한 방법이니까

These days the meaning of friendship got really thin like
a thread that will break any time soon
A sudden friendship never lasts forever
on the other hand, there are some friends that
I reacently have been friends with but never knew
their existance before.
When someone leaves me another relationship between
another person forms. It is painful to let go of someone
who once have been part of me, known all me secrets but
behind that sorrow, there is another person who is waiting for me
to form another relationship.
Whether it's an friendship or love
I came to a conclusion that I shouldn't treat them
seriously as I did before.
They come by and leave quickly


Not all of them are but time just ruins everything

리쌍LeeSsang - ballerino (Feat. Ali)

The movies about this guy who can't let go of his dead lover
He bathes her, cuts her nails, and eats with her
but doesn't realize that she's dead
because she is still alive in his mind
but her body slowly decays...
he later realizes that she is actually dead and goes crazy..
A movie like this is something Masa would really like
Although it creeps the shit out of me, I have to admit that
it's a good movie and a song.
Two Thumbs up since I agree with the feeling
because I do know how it feels like letting go of someone
I have once really loved.

-

I AM FUCKEN LONELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

보고싶어지는날엔-박지헌

Back to reality

I'm taking too many classes this semester...URGH.
but then, it's my last semester..
Now that I think about it, after all it IS OUR LAST SEMESTER...
can't believe I'm taking that many classes in my last semester..
I thought I was gonna enjoy my last semester..
well, the reality..that's not it..
I can't wait till May. Graduation, my brother's 8th grade graduation,
my burfday..and everything.
There's so much to celebrate..! yay!!
after that..I think I'm going to Korea and get some piano lessons
and party a lot! I can't wait for that..
My cousin who graduated last year and is now waiting for the college
to start spring semester..partied when I was taking art classes for
my portfolio....(he got into this one of the top colleges in Australia
for Business..)
He was telling me about how hot all the girls in the club was
and how expensive beer was..and stuffs like that..
He actually was having fun..and He made fun of me..or I guess
pitied me....WTF....
After all we are only one year apart....hello?
I guess just because he is one year older, he can enjoy life
one year faster than me...(WAT AN ADVANTAGE? huh?)
anyhow..I feel empty...
I feel like I'm leaving something out...but I don't know what..
I have been having sleeping problems...
I think my bed is really uncomfortable..
it is the worst place to sleep.............really!
I have been relieving my stress out
from punching my yellow teddy bear that K bought me....hehe
I choked it yesterday and threw it on the ground,
then picked it up when I was about to sleep LOL
I feel bad for the teddy bear...but then, he was bought by the wrong guy...
I wouldn't have tortured it if someone else bought it for me.. eh-heh
It seems like the teddy bear is running away from me..
(even though I know it can't move)

Anyhow...I hate february..
I hate the lovey dovey atmosphere..
I hate the couples hugging each other
I hate red, pastel pink colors
I hate the hearts

Although the valentine cookies from Herman's Bakary are good, mmmmm
but other than that.. I hate Valentine's day..
I think these days I'm turning emo-ish, punk ....
just by looking at the gloomy ore around me....
(I see it every morning...when I see the mirror..it freaks me out...)
I think that's why I have been putting on massive
smoky eye make-up...just to get rid of that ore....

I wonder if Ayaka's present reached Japan yet...
It was suppose to be a freaken Christmas present..but I guess it transformed into a
Valentine's present...LOL :)
I guess it goes well with Valentines than Christmas...




Picture from the past:
2006年 10月 27日 GIG;s
Northern Marianas Academy ALL HALLOW"S PARTY
with Masahide Yoshida

Look at us!! we look so young!!! X-D